Riveting Tuesday morning

 

Balance Scale.

It's been over a year I stopped writing,

It's been over a year I stopped doing the things I love,

It's been over a year of going back and front my relationships and friendships,

It's been over a year of launching and relaunching my business,

It's been over a year I started my 7-5 work.

Today, I started my annual leave and it just dawned on me that I have no interesting personal life outside work. I picked up my phone to call a few of my friends, most of them had left town, most of them had a lot they were going through that I had no idea of. I lost communication with my friends from University. I went on Facebook and Wow! It was like a new world I was lost in. But it gave me a good speed at catching up with what's happening in my friends' lives. I started to drop comments on their posts at least it's better to be late than never

What happened to me? I used to be a fun loving person, I loved to travel a lot, I loved to hang out with my girls, how did I go from 100 to 0. Why didn't someone let me in on this reality on time? Am I sad? Yes!. 

I've realised I spent 95% of my time at work, it took my sister's accident in August 31st to draw me close to my family. The same family I live with. I wake up everyday by 5:30 running after work and then leave work most times very late and by the time I get home I just want to sleep, I use my usual word "I am tired". 

I remember when most of my friends used to call me and sincerely it was always at the wrong time. I'd pick and Beg to call them back at the end of the day, but guess what? I never did, I forgot. A lot of my friends weddings I could not attend out of town because of the fear of not making it back on time for work, based on the fact that I also do not love to engage myself in late night journeys. 

My business also has a hit to take because most weekends if I'm not at work, I'm out there trying to make some money. Now have I made enough money? Lol NO. maybe I'm just not doing it the right way. I've also lost some customers due to lack of follow up and really late deliveries. Recently a family friend has invited me to do her wedding on the first of January next year and she wants me to her make up, I had to say No because of my commitment to the 1st of every month at work. 

Am I blaming it on my work? Not really. I blame it mostly on myself that did not balance my scale, I let my career life outweigh my personal life.

Do I know what to do now? Lol YES!.

I'll let you all know in my next blog visit. 

-lietty Kamah